Crucify Me, O Lord

November 09, 2005

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"Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:
And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."

(Psalms 139:23-24)

The longer I live the more I realize my heart is wicked and I need God to purify me. I need him to restrain me from evil thoughts and sinful deeds. No matter how hard I try to live right I find that my flesh rises up in me and as a great wieght to my soul drawing me down.

I am not saying I do not sin willingly, for my flesh is willing. Alas, my inward man hates it. I've come to hate myself in that I hate the sin I do. Like Paul I wish to cry out for deliverance from myself.

"I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me.For I delight in the law of God after the inward man:But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.

O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin.

(Romans 7:21-25)

My spirit longs for the day when at Christ's return I will be glorified never to sin again. Men have preached a 3-fold salvation being that of the power of sin, the price of sin, and the presence of sin. Yet, I am looking for that day when I will be completly delivered from the pleasure of sin. The process has been started as I hate that sin that dwells in me, but from the testomony of those older than I, they still fight the flesh.

So I pray that the Lord to search me. To seek out that evil that I might crucify it. That I might recokon myself dead to it. That I may live for God and not serve the sin. Again Paul said,

"I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me."

Galatians 2:20

Each day I pray God purify me and clear my mind and heart of evil. O Lord, Crucify me! Live through me! Let me be conformed to the image of your Son, Jesus! As the hymn-writer said:

"Searcher of hearts, from mine erase
All thoughts that should not be,
And in its deep recesses trace
My gratitude to Thee."

George P. Morris  

Let us live in the newness of life, and be controlled by the Spirit. Yet we are unable to do it, let God do it for us and enable us. O' how each day I realize my total dependence on Him. Lord, help us to live for you and sin not.

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The root of all sin is pride. My conclusion is this: why we keep sinning is because we get on the jazz from crossing boundries set by God. In a sense we are making ourselves like gods by saying I don't follow that boundary, I can cross it, I am higher than you God.
Galatians 2:20 This verse does not tell us to crucify ourselves. It says we HAVE been crucified. What a miserable existence- trying to do what has alreay been done! In making covenants many times groups were involved. One representative was needed to embody the group. Whatever that representative did happened to the group he represented. Christ went to the cross as the LAST Adam to be our covenant representative. He died on the cross by crufixion. When he died, it was my death. His was a death to sin. It was also my death to sin. The blood was shed for what I had done (sins) and the cross crucified me (the sinner who produces the sins) with Christ. We must go from mere substitution (he died for me) to identification- I died with him. If we try to crucify ourselves then we say that we can do it ourselves and spurn the act and work of Christ. It is pride to say, I will not believe what you have done, I will do it myself or maybe with your help if needed. We often ask God's assistance in doing it. We did not get saved that way. Jesus plus my effort never adds up to anything with God. Romans 6 shows us that our only deliverance from our old man in Adam came by the cross. Romans 7 teaches us that we are free from the law. The law was based upon human effort. The more we struggle to be free from sin the stronger sin will become. We must first know we have been crucified with Christ. If we are dead than the struggle is OVER. No more need to try to surrender ourselves. Jesus died our death to sin. He did our surrendering for us. We died with him. It has been done. Romans 7 is a Christian that has a desire to please God but still is trying to accomplish deliverance by will power. We are free from the law- having to produce for God. Stop trying to overcome your flesh and lust. Trust that in Him he did it. Galatians says "No longer I!" Do not try in the least bit to overcome what Christ has already overcome. Move on to "But it is Christ who lives in me" When Christ was raised from the dead you raised up with him and have his resurrection life on the inside. These truths happened in the Spirit realm in Christ. We still have the old man manifesting in our body because it is still in this natural world. God has not changed this natural realm yet although he did everything necessary in order to be able to do it. He left the natural realm unchanged in order for us to walk in faith in what His Word says. When we trust what God says is a fact in the spiritual it will become a reality in our experience. In Christ we have been crucified - this includes our flesh- Galatians 5:24- We are not requested to do this but BELIEVE this. When we do we will experience it. It is a grievious sin to not believe God and try to do or ask God to do what he has already done!! Trust that Christ is now living his victory and holiness in you. You are the branch and he is the vine. You need not struggle any longer! When a temptation comes do not try to overcome it, do not try not to feel it, or do anything with it. You need to use your faith in what you KNOW- You the old man in Adam died with Christ. When a man dies he is freed from the power of sin. Romans 6:7- Since you are free from the Law you do not try to do anything but you believe it has been done. You then acknowledge Christ within and say, Now my Christ live your victory in me. Your are the fountain of life in me. I leave it up to you to manifest victory in this situation. Often you will feel the desire for sin leave and will sense a desire for good. You will sense the stirring of the Holy Spirit within. You will sense direction. Follow it in faith and you will see his life manifested and new fresh victory. This does not make us passive in our Christian walk. We should not live passive lives but active. Howbeit, I say active in response to the the in-working of God based upon His redemptive facts and realities in Christ. We are active RESPONDERS to God's facts and power in us. We were never created to be INITIATORS. We must move from the knowledge of good and evil to the tree of life which is CHRIST! That tree is in you. Rely and partake of it for your deliverance! I encourage you to get a copy of the Normal Christian life by Watchman Nee and read and re-read it. God bless Rick

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