Crucify Me, O Lord

November 09, 2005

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"Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:
And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."

(Psalms 139:23-24)

The longer I live the more I realize my heart is wicked and I need God to purify me. I need him to restrain me from evil thoughts and sinful deeds. No matter how hard I try to live right I find that my flesh rises up in me and as a great wieght to my soul drawing me down.

I am not saying I do not sin willingly, for my flesh is willing. Alas, my inward man hates it. I've come to hate myself in that I hate the sin I do. Like Paul I wish to cry out for deliverance from myself.

"I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me.For I delight in the law of God after the inward man:But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.

O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin.

(Romans 7:21-25)

My spirit longs for the day when at Christ's return I will be glorified never to sin again. Men have preached a 3-fold salvation being that of the power of sin, the price of sin, and the presence of sin. Yet, I am looking for that day when I will be completly delivered from the pleasure of sin. The process has been started as I hate that sin that dwells in me, but from the testomony of those older than I, they still fight the flesh.

So I pray that the Lord to search me. To seek out that evil that I might crucify it. That I might recokon myself dead to it. That I may live for God and not serve the sin. Again Paul said,

"I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me."

Galatians 2:20

Each day I pray God purify me and clear my mind and heart of evil. O Lord, Crucify me! Live through me! Let me be conformed to the image of your Son, Jesus! As the hymn-writer said:

"Searcher of hearts, from mine erase
All thoughts that should not be,
And in its deep recesses trace
My gratitude to Thee."

George P. Morris  

Let us live in the newness of life, and be controlled by the Spirit. Yet we are unable to do it, let God do it for us and enable us. O' how each day I realize my total dependence on Him. Lord, help us to live for you and sin not.

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The root of all sin is pride. My conclusion is this: why we keep sinning is because we get on the jazz from crossing boundries set by God. In a sense we are making ourselves like gods by saying I don't follow that boundary, I can cross it, I am higher than you God.
I understand completely what you have been going through, as I have gone through the same very difficult experience myself for years. In fact I have often wondered "why" I have not been able to mortify the deeds of the flesh, walk after the Spirit, and yield not my members as weapons of unrighteousness. However, I have been able to move beyond this wretched state through belief in God's only solution to this problem. The solution to the plight of Romans 7 is to be found in Romans 6. The anser is simply to actually and precisely believe what God has said concerning the Old Man (the flesh you were born into) - that it is already dead - IF you have been identified with the absolute righteousness act of the Lord Jesus dying on the cross - if you have, and you confess and believe that there is no possible way to improve upon your flesh, then you have been identified with his death. Your Old Man has from God's perspective become truly and literally dead - though your flesh may want to tell you otherwise. I am not sure if you have seen 'A beautiful Mind' - but John Nash (the lead in this movie) is living a life that seems to be very important in his service to his Government in a time of war - and he is quite content with this life, without any conflice - but then it is revealed to him that this work and life is actually not as it appears - his mind has made up an alternate reality that is contrary to the truth - at this point conflict is introduced into his life, as he must now determine and decide on what is the "true" reality - that is a similar situation that we are in. On the one hand, God tells us that this body that we were born into is no longer alive, and the life that we live we now live trough the Lord Jesus in resurrection life; however, our flesh (and everyone we know) tells us that we are not dead, but very much alive in this flesh. Who shall we believe? If we believe God, then we have a good chance of no longer serving Sin, but if we do not enter into this belief, then we are destined to continue under the dominion of Sin -- remember, that he that is dead is freed from sin. Also, notive how Romans 7 starts with a discussion of a woman who, while she is married to a husband is (under the Mosaic law) an adulteress if she marries another man while her first husband is alive - yet, if her first husband dies then she is free to marry and serve another. Now, she could act as some older people do who have been married to the same person for years, when their spouse dies and they are then re-married, the new spouse gets to hear about, and must at times submit to what the previous (now dead) spouse liked or did not like. The spouse that remains has not set themselves free from the law or dominion of the wishes of their now dead spouse - much to the dismay of their new spouse. The same happens to us when God says that our Old Man (the body that we were born into) has dead, but we choose not to believe this fact. We continue to submit to the desires and dominions of the dead man, instead of living in newness of life in service to our New Man - who is created into a unity with and a reflection of the Lord Christ Jesus - and which CAN NOT sin. That is correct - the New Man can not sin - as it is 100% justified - having the very righteousness of God in Christ. You can not become more Holy or Just than this. So, if you want to hve freedom from the dominion from sin, then you must learn and then precisely believe exactly what God has said about you in relation to Him as it pertains to Christ Jesus. All of this can be found in Romans 3-8. Do not try to "interpret" the verses, but instead believe exactly what God has said, and by doing this you will have success in this life, as well as the life to come. I hope this has helped in some small way. By His Grace, Jason Plummer

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